| Abstract: | 這是一篇有關家有思覺失調父親其子女（么子）的自我敘說研究，也就是我的生命故事，在成長的過程中，我經常感受到「疏離感」與「無歸屬感」而這樣的感受驅使著我，對自我深入的探問伴隨著追問的過程，我開始拼湊自身記憶的碎片，透過生命故事的整合，我得以擁有更完整的脈絡理解自身，透過閱讀與反思，我開始能夠重新詮釋與理解自己生命中的重要片刻所帶來的深刻意涵，最終我走過理解的三個階段，從父親是父親，到父親不是父親，是病人，到父親仍然是父親，也仍然是一個人的階段。
在體悟到父親的狀態後，我開始轉向理解家人，進而理解到思覺失調症其實對於每一個家人來說都是充滿衝擊與痛苦的歷程，因為這樣的體悟，我得以接納自己的痛苦，進而轉向實踐與接觸家人的歷程，在與家人和好，發展新的互動模式，重新享受親情的快樂後，我開始協助身邊的人享受自身的自由。
本文具體章節如下：第一章緒論、第二章文獻回顧，第三章研究方法、第四章生命故事、第五章身體轉化：壓抑情感的湧現、第六章文本閱讀與反思、第七章書寫與行動實踐、第八章歷程與反思、第九章後設分析：屬於我的英雄旅程、第十章結論與建議。
This is a self-narrative study which is my life story which is about the child who have a Schizophrenic father. In the process of growing up, I often feel the sense of "alienation" and " no belongingness ". Those kind of feelings drove me to deep inquiry into myself. I began to piece together the fragments of my memory in the process of deep inquiry. Through the integration of life stories, I was able to have a more complete understanding of myself. Through reading and reflection, I began to be able to Reinterpreting and understanding the profound implications of an important moment in my life, I finally walked through the three stages of understanding. First father is a father. Second father is not a father who is a patient. Third father is the father who is a person.
After realizing those state, I began to turn to understand my family, and then realized that the Schizophrenia is a painful process for every family. Because of this understanding, I was able to accept my own pain. Turning to practice and touching the family. After reconciling with my family, I developed a new interactive mode and re-enjoyed the joy of family life. finally I began to help the people who around me to enjoy their freedom.
The specific chapters of this paper are as follows: Chapter 1 Introduction, Chapter 2 Literature Review, Chapter 3 Research Methods, Chapter 4 Life Story, Chapter 5 Writing Transformation: The Emergence of Repressed emotion, Chapter 6 Text Reading and Reflection, Chapter 7 Writing and Action, Chapter 8 Process and Reflection, Chapter 9 Meta-analysis: My Hero Journey, Chapter 10 Conclusions and Recommendations. |
