| 摘要: | 本研究探討童年時期遭遇家庭暴力之女性倖存者，如何從受暴經驗邁向復原，也探討受暴經驗對於生涯發展的影響，及成為助人工作者的韌性歷程。本研究採敘說研究，透過深度訪談蒐集三位研究參與者的受暴經驗、內在傷痛復原、生涯發展及韌性展現的歷程。研究結果分成兩個部分，第一部分聚焦於受暴經驗與復原轉化歷程發現：1.受暴經驗帶來負向衝擊是全面性的，且不同類型受暴倖存者，仍然會經驗至相似的衝擊。2.暴力的出現來自於三個面向：(1)生活情境壓力使然，(2)酒精因素，(3)社會文化中的父權至上。在內在復原轉化的歷程裡，研究參與者會經驗到安全空間的出現、生活支持系統萌芽、情緒宣洩與療癒、自我價值的提升、新視框的開啟、關係的和解，以及有參與者出現對於過往受暴經驗之意義的追尋，然而復原歷程是反覆進行的過程且可能是同時發生，並非呈現單一階段性的改變。第二部分則聚焦於受暴經驗對生涯影響及成為助人工作者的生涯韌性歷程，研究發現：受暴經驗奠定生涯走向，並在專業訓練養成裡，提供有關過往傷痛的解答與新視角。然而進入專業服務裡，當遇見與自身相似際遇案主時，過往受暴經驗使得參與者面臨反移情的挑戰，而無論是留在原職或轉換至其他的助人領域，都開啟自我整理與療癒的階段，至今也仍持續在專業助人領域深耕。
This study explores how female survivors of domestic violence in childhood had moved on from violent experience to recovery, as well as the impact of violent experience on career development and their resilience as helping workers. This study adopted narrative research method, and collected the experience of violence, internal pain recovery, career development and resilience path of the three research participants through in-depth interviews. Two parts of research results have been found. The first part focuses on the experience of violence and the process of recovery transformation: 1. The negative impact of violent experience is comprehensive, and even different types of survivors could still experience similar shocks. 2. The emergence of violence comes from three aspects: (1) The pressure of life situation, (2) Alcohol factor, (3) The patriarchal supremacy in social culture. In the process of internal recovery transformation, the research participants experienced the emergence of safe space, the development of life support system, emotional catharsis and healing, the enhancement of self-worth, the opening of new frames, the reconciliation of relationships, and the emergence of meaning pursuit from the past experience of violence. However, the recovery is a repeated process that may occur simultaneously rather than a change from a single phase. The second part focuses on the impact from the experience of violence on the career and the career resilience of the helping workers. The research found that the experience of violence has laid the foundation for the career path and provided the answers and new perspectives toward the past hurts in the professional training. However, when encountering a client who is similar to oneself in a professional field, the experience of past violence has made the participant face the challenge of countertransference. In addition, whether leaving the original position or transferring to other helper areas, the stage of self-organizing and healing are all started, and the participant has continued to devote deeply to the field of helping profession. |
